Academic Girl Strikes Again!

So, today is Sunday. And it's not just any Sunday of any month, but The Dreadful Sunday After a Two-Week Holiday; The Terrifying Sunday After Which Occurs Monday, In Which I Will Have to Go Back to School.

Like previously mentioned, I've been having some problems recently, and most of them originate from school. However, it's not exactly a problem with my performance or anything, more like the problem with my attitude - I stress and panic while I don't necessarily have anything to stress or panic about.

It's been a happy two weeks, all about writing and all my thoughts focused on NaNoWriMo. Now I have to become aware, again, what are most of my problems at school about - and I think the central two subjects are French and Math, currently. Math because I don't know how to do it, because I have a word-oriented brain, and French just because.

BUT. I'll also have to remind myself that high school doesn't kill you, and it mostly doesn't even make you stronger. I've got a lot of friends who are laughing about the so-called importance of high school, and I do concur. There's just something wrong with my attitude - regardless of how unimportant it is, it has to be perfect.

So, I'm trying to take new bearings. These new bearings began today, when I also began to do some of my homework - getting back to the mindset of school. Then, just an hour or two ago, I paused, and told myself that I will go shopping now. And shopping I went, to the mall just near my place, and I actually bought a bunch of crap. It may seem kinda of materialistic now, but I think it was something to take my mind of school. I bought hairspray, chocolate, a ruler (because I broke mine before), a set of permanent markers and suchlike. I also bought a binder for Following the Gay Umbrella - I like having things physically, printed off and somewhere, organised.

I think I also needed that trip. It's a beautiful day outside now, and I was wearing long pants, a long-sleeved t-shirt and a t-shirt on top of that (a style of clothing I really happen to like), and when I was walking home in my dark-ish clothing in the sunshine, I was actually getting kind of hot. I've got to love spring, and hope that summer comes soon enough, so that I will only have to worry about getting too hot.

So, the walk was pleasant, and the shopping trip was pleasant, and now I have a pile of crap I don't exactly need but that made me content. It's funny how the human mind works, isn't it? However, I still have some homework that I need to do before I can take my laptop out and continue my plot outline (by the way, I've been insanely productive on that part, too - last night I hit 40,000 words) in the sunshine.

Hurry up, Academic Girl (that will totally be my superhero name once I gain my awesome superhero powers in the near future by, uh, writing over 50,000 words in a month), the sun's gonna go down in a couple of hours or so!