Some reserves to draw on

Oh, look, I have a blog!

See, I knew this would happen at some point or another. Like with everythingI start, it begins really enthusiastically and I'm really into it, but at one point, updates just stop coming and after some more time, I basically avoid looking at the bookmark into my current blog, since I should be updating and am not!

I should get more people to follow this blog and kick me if I'm not updating. Maybe that would yield some results...

Well, at least I can make the excuse that I've been going through kinda rough times recently. I've got a lot of things going on, mainly high school and the ridiculously high expectations I set for myself. I'm that type of person who, when they consider having only used 98% of their possible energy/talent capacity, will get very angry at themselves and stay that way for a while. Long story short, I am swiftly running out of energy reserves, in tears most of the time, tired, and have nothing that really interests me and so on and so forth.

But it's a known problem now, and my parents are being just lovely, and I think I need to cut myself some slack. Not to say that I will, of course, because I know that changing expectations of oneself may be difficult indeed, especially since I've been carrying those expectations since I was about three (and playing tennis with my father, and getting angry at myself. Yeah, I've heard this story many, many times).

Regardless of my fatigue and emotional distress, I am alive and still kicking!